Kyle Says....

Sunday, 31 May 2009

  • Currently
    Because of the Times
    By Kings of Leon
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    It's Been a While

    Wow....I remember when Xanga used to be all the rage....Before facebook was public, and MyTrash was well...trashy.
    There are so few people here now, i figure It'l be a great place to lay down some thought.

    Since i've last updated life has turned flipped upside down....catch the reference? Lifes great these days.  Nothing but change for the last year or so, all for the best. 

    I've got a few pretty cool opportunities that have presented themselves as well.  As most of you know i'm a computer guy...and my side business has picked up considerably the last few months, always nice to have a little extra cash flow from that.  Cooking as emerged as a passion of mine, and it turns out i'm pretty darn good at it!  A friend and I actually catered a scholarship event at USM about a month ago, and realized it's something we both enjoy(and are obviously amazing at) so i believe we're going to try to make a go of it.  Nothing serious, but if we can pick up an event or two a month, i'd be happy.  Also, had a pretty awesome convo with my cousin earlier in the week about a potential killer offshore job opportunity.  Basically sitting behind a desk over a couple hundred feet of water...making considerably more than i do now....work half the year????Count me in! as long as they have beds that i can fit in.

    Well....I suppose that's about it right now.  Feels good to be back, i've missed you all. OK not really, but it does feel good to be back.

    G_K

Sunday, 24 May 2009

Friday, 02 November 2007

  • Dang Dude

    Place, this is where
    The giants roam, and their horses stand so tall
    And their fists engaged
    And fingers bent back to the palm, except one

    You ain't seen nothing yet

    And all my judges burn, from their gunshot eyes
    A direct line that travels at the speed of light
    Into my heart, into my mind
    I read between the lions
    The forest grows from their eyes

    I was not placed upon the grass
    Of this ever fading earth
    For a standing ovation, and its romance
    I was placed for the warning, so heed the warning

    And they cannot look away
    For if they do
    And cross paths with a wall
    That reflects all it sees
    And it shows the truth
    Shows the fake
    Shows the past
    Show all of the mistakes
    And it shows everything
    That they refuse to see

    Because if there's blood on the roots
    Then there's blood on the branches

Wednesday, 29 August 2007

  • Ello the 2-3 of you that still know who i am.  Xanga is becoming a good ole friend of mine once more.

    I'm taking a pretty big step right now, kind of into a new, uncharted territory for me.  I'm a community group leader at FBC Hburg this semester.  This might not seem that big, but it really is.  I've been part in 2-3 community groups at the burg, and i've had bad experiences with all of them.  There are lots of those who say "you get out what you put in" but when your leaders hate each other, or dont prepare, or just ramble, you can't really get anything from that.  I have not been a spiritual leader in a long time, it's kind of scarry.  especially since my life is not where it needs to be with Him.  I brought that argument to laurels request in a hope to derail the idea, but she came up and busted me in my face with "He never uses "perfect" people".  IE Moses, i mean come on he studdered, and had the confidence of a Cod fish.  Boy, she was right, and i am humbled, and ready to grow.

    Anyway, it is my desire to really grow myself through this experience, and hopefully love on others in the process.  I'll have to work on my personality a little, be a bit more of an open minded listener. 

    My ole roomate josh is in India right now, loving on a unique group of people.  That kid has more heart, bravery, fear, passion, love, desire, drive, grace, mercy, power than me.  He's simply amazing, and loving.  Pray for him in his journey. 

    "Be more quiet now, and wait for the voice" ~DC



Friday, 24 August 2007

  • So, writing yesterday soothed me a bit so i think i'll try it again.  I'm going to ask some questions and whoever reads this anymore should throw some answers my way. 

    My relationship with Christ has faded, we're still cordial, and i'm still okay to go ask for stuff.  I guess that's not much of a relationship is it?  I know most everyone goes through this at some point in their life, but what i dont know is how to get out of this rut.  I dont know how to not be selfish in my relationship with Him.  I have all of these desires that i want in my life for myself.  I want an amazing wife, job, kids, friends.  All of these things are normal, but Jeff Clark punched me in the face with his message wednesday night.  He said something i've always known, but have never been able to "live".  He said that we should give our deepest desires to Christ, offering full faith that he will provide for us.  Why the hell do i question Christ? I mean look at my life so far, when He and I are "n'sync" life's great, couldn't be better, but when i run off on one of my amazingly stupid tangents everything falls apart.  Why do i/we have the constant urge to run on our own when we've seen time and time again that he provides for us.  I'm like the prodigal son with amnesia.  I run away from Him, learn my lesson weather it be a relationship problem, monetary issue, family qualm, etc.. Then i come running back, get back under His umbrella and let things cool down.  Bask in the grace for a while and pretty much once things calm down, i jump right back in the rain.  recklessly making my own decisions based on selfish motives.  WHY DO I DO THIS?????

    It's kind of funny, a buddy and i were just talking about our hearts for lonely people, and desires to show them love, and community... yet here i am, basically secluding myself into a lonely state again.  I guess that's not very funny, more ironic....don't ya think? 

    Lord, please guide my selfish ways back into Your light.
    Transform me back into the man you intended.  Continue
    to show me grace, mercy, and forgiveness though i do
    not deserve it.  Thank you for your Son, your time, your
    undeserved Love.

Thursday, 23 August 2007

  • Hey guys,

    I've had a lot going on lately, and returning to xangaland seems to be a good idea to empty my head.

    Just a lot of things going on, some good, some not so good.  Moved into a new apartment complex.  Had thoughts of grandeur there, but those thoughts have been thwarted by crappy roomates.  Upon arriving at my apartment, i'm generally greeted with techno music, strobe lights, and disorganization.  I hate inconsiderate people, and that's all i ask for is a little consideration.  Respect me, i'll do the same.  I suppose that even though i am only 24, that living with 20 year olds is a stupid idea.  Sure 4 years is not a long time, but it seems to have been long enough to make me an "old man".  Things that were fun when i was "that age" aren't anymore, etc....  It's not bad to grow up right? i mean it's inevitable.  And most of the time i am happier with my life now, then i was back then. 

    Lots of stuff, keep me in your prayers/thoughts/meditations/fortune cookies.  Few big life decisions are making themselves apparent to me as of late.  I'd love to get a new job closer to home, maybe making a few more bucks.  I'm having the urge to settle down somewhere, which is scarry, and confusing, and oh who knows.  life's full of surprises good and bad. 

    It's funny to me that so many things that you thought were certain are not.  Things just pop up like those silly "wack-a-mole" games, but for some reason, i can't seam to force them back to the hole they came from.  I feel kind of aloneish right now, it's quiet a lot these days as well. 

    Religion is confusing, i know i should have a relationship w/ my creator, and i do.  Last nights message was pretty awesome at FBC.  But not being self-reliant scares the hell out of me, i've always been so independent and self sufficient, i have a hard time giving up control.  Like i said, prayers are welcome.  Not so much fortune cookies, b/c i dont even like them, they taste like sugared paper. 

    New friends are awesome, and appreciated, and necessary!!!  It's great to have guys i'm close enough with to drink some beers and talk about girly things, and get made fun of for being such a woman, and basically it's all Kenneth's fault.  Thanks a lot Kenneth.

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